It can all change....in a blink of an eye....
Last year, I wooorked so hard, and got beat up and some most cherished people passed away and I lost and lost and lost. Depressed and discouraged, no matter how much I tried to pump sunshine up my butt with positive words, meditation, talks with well meaning friends and the occasional breakdown of honest surrendering tears, I could not get a break.
Then I got 'dismissed without cause' from my job and replaced by a fellow 30 years younger and with no experience because he was a friend of the manager. It was a few days later when a lovely friend took me away to his little trailer of a home with no running water and a coleman stove, way out in the country for a few days that my life turned around. He showed me kindness and unconditional love expecting nothing in return. My part to was to accept and let go. To really accept what was being given and really let go and put my trust in this person who at the time, I hardly knew. In return, I loved unconditionally back and accepted everything that came my way. Picture here, we were not lovers, but two people who both had broken pasts and just needed a genuine friend in the storm of life.
Well, from that week forward, boy oh boy, did everything start to rush my way in positive ways. Job offers from friends so I could work from home, and if I needed something like guidance, then it would appear by an old friend who is now teaching life skills and needs someone to practice on. If I wanted something, like a sparklie flapper dress with tassles it would suddenly be in front of me in a thrift shop. My paintings were selling one after another to the point where I started to worry that I wouldn't have inventory (how silly is that!) I had one opportunity after another. One person from my past showing up to give me something and then someone new would emerge to offer me something else. It is like I am on this wave of blessings like I have never experienced before in my life.
I cannot sleep because I am so very very happy and excited about what life is offering me every single day. Every time that I accept an invitation, I am being given a gift of some sort. Never in my life have I ever been in this type of vortex of goodwill and joy and ease in acquiring of the basics of what I require. This in a time when I have absolutely nothing.
Why? I do not know. I do not know how long it will last. I will not test it. I am a person that lives in the moment by the very nature of my Buddhist teaching so I will just embrace it for all that it is. I have not squandered any of it. This vortex has been going strong for 2 months now and every day I have been present and progressive with the gifts that have been given to me. I hope that in 6 - 9 - 12 - 24 months that I can say that it has continued and that I have accomplished great things with my time and made a wonderful impact for others. I wish to do this.
My dream is to be of service to my fellow person in their evolution of realization of their greatness so that they can help others realize theirs.
Thank you for being with me on my journey.